I have never had to do anything harder in my life than to go through college. Whether this was technically a “choice” or an “obligation”, I don’t know, but I am sure as hell it isn’t what I thought it would be.
I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t take a break, I can’t enjoy things, I can’t spend time with my friends, I can’t do things I want to do. And it’s all going to finish 2.5 months from now; then I will enter the real world to come to the conclusion that ‘Great, what am I going to do with my life now?’ because I don’t even have a job yet or any solid idea of what I want to do.
I have to go to an interview on Tuesday for a company I don’t know two shits about and beg them to accept me so I can become a productive member of society and contribute to the greater good by pushing paper around all day and continuing to hate my life while I question why I am here doing this.
Maybe I made the wrong choices, but it’s not like I can go back and correct them. Nobody ever told me these things when I was 9 was and wanted to grow up to build things and draw trucks.
Philippe Petit on the roof of the World Trade Center, before his high wire walk between the Twin Towers. (1974)
The amount of money I paid for weed for this semester equals the amount of money I paid for college for this semester.
Shows where my priorities are.
Granted just two tests have concluded: You score for primary psychopathy was higher than 96% of people who have taken this test.
I don’t consider this a personal failure at all. Morality is just a false image of a perfect world that will never exist, and if you can get somewhere with a “win at all costs” mentality, then congratulations you worked your way there and beat the system to earn it. What is completely moral in today’s world? The government? No. Business? No. People? No. Desensitization to some imaginary obligations to work with each other hand-in-hand is what separates those who are willing to settle for comfort and complacency from those that are willing to do things their own way and on their own terms. Do other people matter in the world? Yes. Is getting what you want at whatever cost you are willing to pay also important? Yes, as well.
TL;DR I think my conscience is fucked.
If you think you are a professional inspiration because you just made your first wordpress blog about all the great life journeys your 20 year old self has made at a nonprofit internship so far this summer, then get off the internet you retarded fuck.
Listening to music, doing work, and eating chips. Suddenly turns into just listening to music and eating chips. Always..
I am surprised the gif vs. jif battle has seen this much action. I will still support “jif” though. And now I want peanut butter..